well today i shall talk about the word distance
wat is distance actually?????
it can be a very straightforward meaning such as from point a to point b
is already a distance. many things can come between a distance
but in a clique you will never wan a distance to come man
it totally sucks cause distance seperates the whole clique
these few days quite many things are happening
bs is having problems with ah lai
both seem to have some distance between them
well who doesnt hope for everything to work smoothly and fine
but in reality things dun always go your way
one usually have to face many challenges!
as quoted from a wise man:

if he is ur friend
u see him doing something wrong
go give advice
stop if he refuses
if not u r jus inviting self humiliation

so even if u r very close as a clique
there are still limitations to wat we can do
go over the damn line and everything will
jus start to disappear
quarrels are inevitable in clique
but can we jus treat it as a challenge proposed to the clique
jus pass this stage and we will still remain as a clique
dun think so much everybody
wrong thinking will onli make matters worse
it will onli make u lose faith and trust
in a clique the most important thing is faith and trust
if we dun even possess this
then lets not even be friends

well dudes seems like things happening around my life is jus not so good afterall
well jaime feels tat her clique is drifting away from her
howard seems to be more and more far and away from my clique
mushroom and me are never tat good friends like in the past
everyone seems to have their own problems
or is jus everyone thinking too much
ah lai is also thinking too much at times
but as humans arent we supposed to think
some things in our life is jus so fked up
sometimes i realli feel tat being a CLIQUE is easy but
maintaining the bonding between the CLIQUE is definitely sumthing not everyone can do
chicken was part of our clique once but he was kicked out shortly after
now the remaining ones are yt bs me dey ah lai jac garey joel
well and it seems like the number would jus become smaller and smaller
well talkded to yt at msn jus now,ask her everything she also dunno
sometimes i wonder wat she noes sia
i jus have a gut feeling
something bad is about to happen
and we all shall see whether this clique can stand the test of time and every other obstacle
lastly i hope tat things will go smoothly for all
especially for my brother ngee song
he damn emo and he is realli in a bad shape
dun wanna see him this way
hope he realli get better soon

today went out with my clique lols
for quite some time never go out with them ler
today outing we agreed to meet at sakae at 3 45
then in the end most of them turned up quite late
the earliest ones there was me darren jeremy and yt
haiz but got a very strange feeling lei
jus feel tat like got a barrier between us lor
like not as good friends as in the past anymore
there is jus a fking barrier dere
and i realli fking hate tat barrier
dun misunderstand me i realli treat u as a good friend now onli
dun think too much of the issue i admit i once liked u
but tats in the past liao so dun think so much
somehow i jus hope tat the fking barrier will go away somehow
if i knew things would turn out this way
i would never have gave out those feelings
i would have buried those feelings long ago
my life is so fked up jus seriousl fucked up

ahha today i went back to maple again and helped my brother uped 2 levels from 111 to 113! omg it was so tough almost killed me sat infront of the com for 10 hrs almost died seriously !! now i suffer from sotong poisoning haaha haiz nth much to say for today ler bb

well though a few days back my good brother told me its possible to win ur heart and i was almost swayed by his encouragement but well now im even more determined to maintain good friendship with u cause im very sure tat u r still treating me as a good friend. feeling much better these few days! guessed i learnt how to let go ler! as i realli believe tat if i continue in wat i do i would most probably destroy my whole clique! well dun wan tat to happen. these few days guess some of my clique are also facing some problems of their own. ok today went shopping with ah lai, mushroom, joel and howard! the gals enjoyed shopping while the guys realli suffered!!!!! nxt time dun dare to go out shopping with the gals liao!!! scary sia gals can realli shop lor! never see joel for quite some time ler! he still has not changed at all! still as pervertic as ever haha lols! looking forward to the sushi session 23 November sia jus 2 weeks away lols! and well its been a real long time since i had a good fight realli looking forward to having a few fights to make my life less boring haahaha tats all for today dun wanna talk too much!=D

wah finally i get to sit down and blog! had a real long day man! helped uncle to move alot of things today!!! the bed was seriously the worst thing to move man! its so damn bulky and seriously manuveuring it was extremely difficult especially at the stairs!!! when done with everything thought tat i could have a bath and a good rest then father came along and said!!! help me to change the fish tank water and it took jolly well another 2 hours! so aww man i reluctantly finished all the chores and yaya im blogging~! so damn tired sia!!! haiz tml is sunday and i have nth to do again!

haha gave a extremely long thought regarding this matter! i have realised no matter how i try or how i treat u, i will jus be a good friend in ur heart. so there is no point in pursuing something tat can never be achieved! seriously thought for a damn long time. not easy to give up but well for now i realli feel tat being good friends is the best tat we can achieve! i jus have a strange feeliing tat we r nt wat we used to be! maybe there is a glass barrier now. maybe becuz u think tat when i get close to u, its with motive. but its nt so now i realli still treasure this friendship. lets hope tat we can still be very good friends and father daughter as well lols hha feel much better after expressing my thoughts here. Argh tml is a long day have to help uncle move house again haha. seems tat i have no choice well our outing is nearing soon!!! 16 nov.. sort of looking forward to tat day haha where everyone will turn up in FORMAL shd be quite fun ba haha lols well one more thing. my clique is getting crazier and crazier. we r doing things tat we would nt normally do lols even my daughter goes crazy everyday haha=D

haha today had a long day in school! owned yoke ting like dunno wat. whole clique bully her lols!!!! then thought tat after i finish doin my weights could have a good rest. who knows!!!! FATHER suddenly called me and said you need to help ur uncle move house! i went wtf man!!! no choice so went to help him move house lor then he booked me for saturday as well so haiz this whole week gotta use lots of str to help him move house ler lols but anyway im still missing her but i guess sooner or later i will be able to treat her as a real friend hope so.