can we realli jus be friends though i keep saying tat we can jus be good friends but i think my heart most probably doesnt allow me to do so. i keep thinking of u! it jus never ends! this feeling sucks. i wanna be dere for u. but most probably as a friend! well randall u shd realli wake up! she is jus nt for u. its realli best to stay as friends. let things be these way at least u still get to see her, hope she is fine and happy forever. and i haha can jus be sumthing close to her. tats all be it a friend or watever.

these few days realli bad for me. everything jus did nt went my way haiz.guessed im too sian for anything right now. nth can perk me up.my life has jus become so meaningless

does she noe tat im missing her so badly?does she noe i realli care for her?does she noe she is so impt to me? does she realize tat i realli love her?no she doesnt RANDALL U R JUS A FKING FOOL JUS A FKING IDIOT!

finally i settled everything today everyone is fine! i can stop worrying for her anymore. tat person had better stop everything he is doing!

haiz if shes is nt feeling then things wun be good for me either. thought i feel this way but i think i made up my mind. It is still best tat we remain as very good friends. but somehow i feel tat things would nt go back like how it used to be. hope things will change for the better, well i choose to let time decide everything.The reason i made this decision was tat i think we could only reach the stage of being very close friends. i feel sad but guess im left with no choice. to love is to make her feel happy and nt hurt.

never missed someone so badly b4. everyday im jus waiting for her call .even the smallest things she does can affect me haiz still in a stage of being emofied.confused as well

im so fking emofied. life is jus boring without u haiz.

i could stay awake just to hear ur breathing. why u smile while u r sleeping! while im far away dreaming!i could spend my life in this sweet surrender.i could stay up till this moment,forever, every moment spent with u is a moment i treasure!i dun wanna close my eyes i dun wanna fall asleep cause i miss u baby and i dun wanna miss a thing.Cause even when i dream of u, the sweetest dream will never do cause i still miss u baby and i dun wanna miss a thing.lying close to u hearing ur heart beating and i wonder wats ur dream.wonder if its me then i kiss ur eyes and think tat we r together and i jus wanna stay with u in this moment forever,forever and ever.I dun wanna close my eyes i dun wanna fall asleep cause i miss u baby and i dun wanna miss a thing.Cause even when i dream of u ,the sweetest dream will never do cause i miss u baby and i dun wanna miss a thing. and i dun wanna miss 1 smile and i dun wanna miss 1 kiss and i jus wanna be here with u jus like this i jus wanna hold u close and feel ur heart so close to mine and jus stay here this moment for the rest of time . cause i dun wanna close my eyes and i dun wanna fall asleep cause i miss u baby and i dun wanna miss a thing. I REALLI MISS U

im blogging again dunno for wat fking purpose life seems so meaningless to me so sian realli bored of everything. things are jus not right! things are jus not how it used to be

me and bary
me and edwin
me and jonathan
me and mao mao
BROTHERS OF HOUGANG SEC

things haven been going well for me recently. haiz many things happened. Finally bought my psp slim for 378 bucks. something is hanging in my mind. fking made me unable to sleep for 4 days.im stil;l thinking of it. thinking of it every minute.no matter wat i do i jus cant erase u off my mind. every moment my thoughts are filled with u haiz ......... my life is so fked up